Xx-Marshmallow-xX

When I gained consciousness again, it was already noon. The sun was high in the sky and the wind had calmed down. I wasn’t in the field either. I was home. The window was open, letting a light breeze through as I sat up in my bed, crawling over to the window to stare out into the horizon, searching for any sign of him, a trace of a figure, a sense of a presence watching me. 

Nothing.

Forcing another set of tears away, I wiped the dried tears off my face, knowing that it was just another nightmare. 

Another dream in which another part of me had died.

I’ve had these nightmares from a young age. But this one was different. He had never before shown me his face, he was always masked. I had never actually known for certain I was dreaming of him but I’ve always imagined it was him. 

He had never talked before either. Never. And he had never before mentioned the sunrise, though he would always stand opposite me as the sun rose every morning. And when the sun reached the top of the light blue sky, he would walk away.

He never touched me before. He never looked directly at me. He never spoke.

So why now?

It felt so real.

But it wasn’t real.

I want to see him again.

But I know I won’t see him ever again in person.

I’ll only be able to see him…in these nightmares…

A soft sob escaped my sealed lips. 

I don’t want to be caught up in a dream, talking to someone who isn’t real, someone who’s left me a long time ago. I don’t want to hurt every time I wake up, I don’t want to deal with this by myself. But I can’t trust anyone with these secrets, I’ve come so far to acquire a reputation and I can’t ruin it in one split second in which I show Fairy Tail who I really am.

I can’t show them…

I can’t tell them…

But for how long can I keep this burrowed away, deep in the dark corners of my heart?

Not for long, that’s for sure.

How long has it been since I’ve used Arisa? 

How long have I suffered?

How long will I have to suffer?

I stood up, a determined look on my face. I took a pen and a piece of paper, writing down a note and leaving it on the fridge for Milky Way. I then got dressed into my normal attire and left the house in a neat state, walking quickly through Magnolia towards the station. Making sure no one saw me, I sneaked behind the station swiftly to gaze at the view in front of me.

The freedom. 

The empty space.

The chance to be myself for once in a long time.

I felt my magic cursing through me but I stirred the other magic within me, the black flames that were hidden from view, deep down where all my nightmares lay. As soon as it stirred, I felt the rush of the familiar warmth around my body and watched as my skin turned a paler white, my fingernails growing into long claws and my fangs lengthening as well. Stopping the process for a moment, I reached a hand up and felt two cat ears on the top of my head, my human ears gone. A smile set itself on my lips as I let the wind ruffle through my short dress.

Taking a deep breath, I concealed my neko form once again and stared out to the horizon. 

Maybe it was just my imagination but for a moment, I thought I saw a figure, watching me. The next second, they were gone.

Disappointed and distressed again, I turned back away and walked to Magnolia, walking back to my house and binning the letter I wrote, locking my doors and windows, shutting all the curtains and closing the blinds before crumpling down onto my bed and closing my eyes, instantly beginning to fade into another restless dream. 

Previously:

I pulled his hood off with trembling hands as he uttered his last word.

“…Arisa?”

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The sun rose, illuminating the field with a beautiful pink-orange colour.

Everything froze.

The wind. The noise. The sun.

It’s him.

I took a step back.

It’s really him.

And another.

But he’s-

I crashed to the ground with a thud echoing around the empty quietness around us.

He made no movement.

His blue-grey eyes fixated steadily on mine; my own golden eyes widened.

What is he doing here?

He remained calm; I began to shake.

Why is he standing here?

He spoke; I heard nothing.

What was he thinking…

He stood me up, his expression emotionless; I stood up, the tears welling up inside of me.

When he…

He continued to speak, showing no sign of fear or confusion, excitement or explanation; I shook violently in his arms, fear, hurt, anger, confusion, pain, everything building up inside of me.

Died?!

I pushed him away, shaking and taking heavy breaths, holding back my tears as I searched every inch of his face for answers, an explanation, an apology, perhaps.

Nothing.

An emotionless, heartless, piercing stare was all I got in return.

I bent my head down, my bangs covering my eyes from him.

“Jack…” 

It was almost misheard but I uttered it. For the first time in 11 years, I brought myself to utter the name that caused me pain, depression, anger and confusion. That split second, the noise increased slightly the wind blew around us rapidly and the sun rose higher into the sky, the heavenly light around him fading into the morning light of an ordinary day.

But today was not ordinary.

“Arisa.” 

The tone of voice he implied when speaking my name was the only reason I looked up that time. I heard him speak in the way he used to call out to me, to reassure me, to let me know he would always be by my side.

This brought out even more tears and my heart convulsed in pain again. The memory of that night...

"Arisa-"

"NO!" I yelled, grasping onto my hair and shutting my eyes, falling to the floor. "DON'T SAY ANYTHING! I DON'T WANT TO HEAR ANYTHING! YOU'RE NOT HERE! IT'S ANOTHER NIGHTMARE!"

I felt his strong arms lift me to my feet and he engulfed me in a hug, one which I didn't return. I felt weak. "Go away." I chocked out. "Leave, like you always do...in every nightmare...you cause me...pain...and then you leave! Just go!" I beat him repeatedly away but he didn't flinch or move. "Just...go...leave..." He caressed my back lightly. After a few more sobs, I felt myself go weak again and I clung onto his jacket for support, weeping.

"I should leave then." He spoke mono-toned again, his grip on me loosening. "After all, this is just another nightmare." 

I looked up at him, the hot tears streaming down my cold cheeks as I took in his dark brown messed up hair, his ocean blue-grey eyes and every inch of him. Burrowing my face in his jacket, I inhaled his scent for the last time as he let me go and I crumpled to the floor in a swift motion.

He turned around without another word and walked off into the distance just as the sun reached it's peak in the sky. 

No...

I reached out to him, crying into the early morning.

Don't leave me...

I yelled his name again...

Don't walk away...

And again...

Please, Jack...

But no matter how many times I yelled his name and pleaded...

I don't want another nightmare...

He would never look back, not once. It was all just another nightmare.

I want the real you, 

With that thought, I slowly felt myself loose consiousness, whispering his name one last time. "...Jack."

I clutched the note in my right hand, the wind sending chills up my spine as my short dress blew in the wind along with my short black hair. I couldn’t suppress the feeling of guilt, confusion and fear building up inside me as I stood in the empty field, the grass bending with the wind as the cold air hit my bare legs again. My golden eyes scanned the horizon for any trace of a figure, a shadow, anything. 

But there was nothing. 

Or so I thought. 

As the night sky began to fade into a lighter tone, a figure appeared at the end of the field in a gust of wind. Slowly, as the figure approached, I made out the strong shape of a man, or a wizard, should I say. He came towards me at a steady pace, not speeding up or slowing down at any one point. He was masked in the shadows, his hood covering his face and even though I could feel his gaze on me, I couldn’t see his face. 

He stopped a metre away from me. 

I felt the magic aura around him, very familiar to me.

Where do I know him from? Have we met before? Is he someone from the past I keep hidden? 

These questions build up inside me, mixing with the confusion of the note, the fear of meeting him in person and the guilt of hiding everything from everyone in Fairy Tail. 

“So,” He spoke first, his voice triggering something in my memory. He sounded determined, confident and fearless as he spoke, but among this there was a trace of apprehension and a tinge of happiness. “You came.”

I gave a slow nod, searching for answers to my many questions as I stood opposite him. My voice came out jagged and confused as I spoke, very different to this man’s tone. “Yes, I have. Who-?”

“You know me.” Came his simple answer, interrupting me. “Read the note again.”

“But-“

“Read the note.” He ordered.

The cold wind swept my hair around me and pinched at my cheeks as it passed, ruffling my companions hood but not removing it. I lifted my hand and looked down at the crumpled bit of paper, reading aloud while stumbling over my words. “M-meet me at the…the f-field past M-Magnolia…sta-station.”

I glanced up, the sky lightening quickly behind this wizard who gave a short nod, signalling for me to carry on. “The sunset w-will help…help you…you…”

“Remember.” He finished for me, shortening the proximity between us by taking a step forward and taking the note away. “Do you remember…?”

“I don-“ I interrupted myself as a familiar scent hit my dragon slaying nose. I inhaled the smell of smoke, lavender and rain, closing my eyes as I recalled the only person I knew that had this smell. But he was gone.

“Alina? Is that your commonly known name?” He spoke again, his voice steady as he bent down to peer at me but quieter this time. I still couldn’t make out his features even this close. I stood my ground, now slightly shaking before him, scared of what he would do or say next. He straightened.

“But that’s not right.”

He bent down to my level again.

“That isn’t your name, is it?”

He reached for my hands and grasped them tightly.

“What if I called you…”

He placed my hands either side of his hood, letting go.

For the first time, I made out the blue-grey ocean colour of his eyes, staring at me with a longing.

I pulled his hood off with trembling hands as he uttered his last word.

“…Arisa?”

Okay, I just had the best Idea ever I think. So many of you play minecraf or sims I'm guessing? Maybe. Not the point though. I was thinking, what if there was a fairy tail game? Like, you can make your own character and link to servers to join teams with other and have your own magic and moves? Wouldn't that be awesome? You could have canon and oc's in the game on any server! And exceeds as well! It would be awesome! And you could go on missions, there'd be a request board and everything and you can chose actions or what to say to people and say things into a microphone of what you want your character to say to another one. Who likes this? Give it a fave if you do. I just thought it would be amazing. Sorry, I had this idea this morning and couldn't let it go so here!

"Kimmia! Don't run!" I yell after the excited seven year old girl as we make our way to the guild. As she runs ahead, her long brown hair flies out behind her and I can see her holding up the hem of her long white dress with one hand while holding her sun hat with the other. 

I let out a chuckle and smile over at Milky Way, my exceed, as she rests on my right shoulder. At my feet, Kuo walks with us, quiet as always. Kuo is Kimmia's exceed who hatched only two months ago and she doesn't speak much once we're outside or there's other people around.

I should explain, right? Well, I am Alina Kogane, White and Black flame dragon slayer, but keep the black a secret for me, okay? Thanks. I am also a cat half-demon but that is top secret as well. I belong to a guild named Fairy Tail located in Fiore and I absolutely love my family. Even though me, Gray and Natsu tend to fight a lot, we're best friends. Then there's Erza who's constantly nagging about me paying rent and not fighting and being 'lady-like'. Stupid sword-freak. Then Mirajane who's always going on about shipping me with lots of random people in the guild.

It's something like 8am right now and I'm already in a bad mood seeing as a stupid pink-haired idiot slept in my bed again until I chucked him out. Good thing Kimmia and Kuo were still at my friend's house then otherwise she wouldn't have stopped teasing me about it. We're heading for the guild and I'm practically being dragged there now because today's the day that my little adopted sister will be able to join. Well, I'm letting her join at least. 

She uses Animauxe magic, a lost magic which I'm surprised she has. Even though she's not a dragon slayer, she found an exceed egg and it hatched two months ago as I mentioned before. Animauxe magic enables Kimmia to speak to any animal or insect and turn into any animal be it real or fantasy. She can also acquire parts of animals for examble cat ears and whiskers or wings of a parrot. It's actually quite nice, she demonstrated some of the animals at home and she's really good.

"Alina! Hurry up!" Kimmia yells to me, already far ahead.

"Seriously, you have way to much energy and enthusiasm in you." I sigh as I run to catch up. "You're not nervous, are you? Looking forward to joining, Kim?"

She looks up at me with her eyes sparkling and a wide smile stretched across her face. "Of course I'm not nervous, the way you talk about everyone makes me think that they're just relatives I never met before. And I already know where my mark is going to be, want to hear?"

I give her another sigh but smile, not everyone has a little sister this enthusiastic and positve. "Enlighten me."

"I'm having it in orange on my right forearm, right here!" She points it out with another of her adorable smiles. 

"Why orange?" I question her as we get nearer to the guild hall.

"Because I doubt they have gold." She says while pouting.

Now I'm even more confused. "Whu do you want gold?"

"So that when I look at you when you're away on a mission, I'll always remember you!" 

"Aw, that's so sweet Kiwi!" Milky Way laughs and pokes my cheek. "Isn't it nice, say thank you!"

I roll my eyes and give Kim a hug. "You're just too cute for your own good." I let her go and come to a stop right outside the guild entrance and kick open the door. "I'M HOME!" I yell with a wide grin as I am instantly greeted with cheers and 'good morning' 's. Then, the guild hall goes silent which worrys me just a little.

Kuo moves closer to me and Milky Way flies down to hug her for comfort. I take in everyone's surprised and confused faces and I turn to see they're staring at Kimmia. "Oh, right. Everyone! Meet Kimmia, my little sister!"

For another minute, the news sinks in and then a chorus of 'hello' 's and 'welcome Kimmia' break out through the guild hall. "Well," I smile and walk inside. "Let's go get that stamp you wanted...Kim?" I turned around to see Kimmia frozen, staring inside. I raise an eyebrow, a hand on my hip. "Don't tell me you're sca-"

"Guild..." She mutters, still frozen.

I roll my eyes and sigh, pushing her through the crowd all the way to the bar where Gramps is sitting on the counter. "Hey Gramps, how's it going? Kim wants to join us."

"Hmm, lets see...what magic do you use young lady?" Gramps asks her as I stand to the side, punching Gajeel on the way for looking at me weirdly.

"I use animauxe magic, sir." Kimmia says with a smile. She concentrates and a yellow light surrounds her. A second later, a deer is standing in the guild hall where Kimmia was.

I burst out laughing, clutching my stomach as everyone eyes me like I'm mental. "You're...faces...!" I wheeze out, trying to calm down.

Kimmia turns back into her human form and smiles around shyly. 

"Mirajane, get the stamp. This here young lady is the newest member of Fairy Tail. Welcome child!" Gramps says with a smile at her.

The matchmaker comes over with a stamp, Kimmia crying a little from happiness. Kuo goes over and gets a blue stamp on her back and the two of them go off to explore with Wendy guilding them. I lean back on my elbows on the counter when Mira slides over to sit beside me. 

"So, Alina," She says with a knowing smirk. "How's Nalina going along?"

"For gods sake, Mira, it will never happen! I don't even like him!"

"Then why are you blushing, hmm?"

"I'm not!"

"Sure, sure."

"Shut up!"



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Yup, just a random thought I've been having for a while. Basically Alina's adoptive sister and her exceed join Fairy Tail. This will be turned into a story so watch out for the next chapter but yeah, I'm bored and need inspiration so I thought of this. ^-^ Thanks for reading!